The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am still recovering from the anxiety of receiving the money from the sale of my parents' house. It was coming since January when I found about it & spent the last nearly two months anticipating its arrival. I felt like I was spending the money in my head. It is so crazy to get money like that when you(me) are used to not really having a whole bunch of money. Over the past 13 years, I have been pretty secure financially. I just haven't had this much to deal w/.
I am hopefully going to be on the right track mentally as well. Anyone who is following my posts, knows that I struggle w/ my sanity. I am sometimes still on the 2nd step. I have asked God to restore me to sanity. Now onto the 3rd step; turning my will over to God. I have made that decision as well. Now I just have to put into practice & continue to work the program. I hope to find peace & serenity as I continue my journey to wellness.
Sometimes I feel like a newcomer in that I slip & fall down. But, these days I get right back up & move on. Earlier today I had an incident where I had to start my day over after a short nap. It was a very short nap but it recharged my batteries. I was angry, now I am not.
Life is good. I have a life of many blessings--really nothing to complain about. I really don't need anything I don't already have. My needs are met daily. I just wish I didn't want so much. I have to remember that just because I want something, doesn't mean I have to have it.
Every since my home has been paid off, I feel a sense of security like never before. Now that is something to be grateful for.
I am happy to know of your sense of security and gratitude; such a comforting place to dwell. I hear in your post self care and perseverance. I, too, fall often. The first 3 steps are always close to me, tucked away in my pocket for an easy reach. Keep taking good care of yourself and thank you for sharing your hope and optimism