The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I thought in my mind one day I would not be able to fly anymore because I would be afraid. I thought in my mind that someday I would not be able to drive on the California freeway. I feel like I don't want to subject myself to any of that. And I think that time has arrived. But how do I visit, how do I see my sisters and son and grandchildren, is there an alternative way perhaps.....by ferryboat, by train or maybe they can come to see me.
I have been fighting with this in my mind for days. Although I feel an obligation to come down and visit, I also want to be true to myself. Money is tight, and I will retire this late fall. I live in Alaska where it is serene and not even a quarter of the people here that are in the lower 48. Its been over 30 yrs since I've lived in a big city.
There are some great people and things to do in a big city. But I don't feel like I need to revisit that again. I am feeling guilty, but yet want to remain true to myself. Any experience, strength or hope with this anyone. Its not like I can go down and ignore the noise, the traffic, the lines etc. etc. Maybe this has to do with my age not sure I am 68, but very able bodied and not sick. Love to hear any ideas or experience....It has taken me a long time to "think about my own feelings" and now that I have practiced taking care of myself, I am somehow hesitant to do so. .....Sincerely Oldergal.
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Don't Worry About Growing Old, It Is A Privilege For Some Of Us.....
I myself would have to fly even if I was afraid. Driving down from Alaska would be more dangerous I would think. The train would take a long time but after you retire you will have that time. I hate driving in CA anymore but I do to see my sister.
Where you live would be great place for your family to visit. It would be a great vacation for them and see you at the same time. I would love to visit Alaska if I had family up there
I wouldn't feel guilty at all. Just tell you son to send you a ticket and pick me up at the airport...I want to come visit.
Flying is safe and butterflies stop after your in the air my friend.
Take care of you and don't hesitate one bit
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I decided when I retired I was going to live my life with courage, serenity and wisdom. Alanon also suggested that I not project and that I keep an open mind on all things. Using all these tools I have been able to do what I had not thought possible even just a few years ago.
Pray , ask HP for the courage and keep an open mind. The world is yours. Use the 11th step, Praying only for the knowledge of His will and the power to carry it out" .
HP wants us to live and enjoy life. Trust this process.
I have been retired almost 2 years now and on Sunday hubby and I will be driving from Penna to Florida for a week vacation (taking the dog, hence the driving). Hubby has been giving some very serious thought to us moving there for good. I am the opposite, I love living outside of a big city and so close to NY. Always things to do, no matter the season. Florida is quieter, slower , but right now I want some warm weather!!!!
Since working the steps and really asking myself some tough questions, I have found that I, too lost myself a long time ago - not really sure how that happened. Along with all the other lists I keep, I started a somewhat Bucket List for travel. Passport is renewed and after Florida we are planning a cruise from Seattle to Alaska late summer. A long time ago I loved to fly; not so much since 9/11. But I am so tired of sitting around watchinglife go by.
Betty is right, our HP wants us to enjoy our lives - pray and keep an open mind. Cathy has a great suggestion, tell you son send a ticket and get ready for a visit. Who doesnot want to see Grandmom?
And by the way "68" is the new "45". I should know as I am the new "40".
