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So once again my fiance dissapeared this morning. She swore she wasnt using or doing anything innapropriate, but I didnt believe her and accused her of using. She told me many times that she wasnt doing anything wrong and I didnt believe her. She decided to leave tonight and its killing me. Im worried that I am so mad at her past actions that it would prevent me from believeing her even if she is tellling the truth. Im worried I may have just destroyed my relationship and that I might be wrong. I am so confused and empty feeling right now.
I'm sorry your going through this. I have done this so many times it was making me crazy. To worry about my son drinking and trying to decide if he was or wasn't didn't do anything to help me or my son. Just left me in a state of fear and worry.
Here is something that I was told: If it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, then it's probably a duck. What was I going to do....
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Lupo...stick with us and the Al-Anon program. If you're not getting to face to face meetings in your area...get there soon. The hotline number is in the white pages of your local telephone book. To an addict...using isn't wrong. Addiction isn't a moral issue...its a disease. Once I learned that my alcoholic/addict wife went from being bad to sick and I went from fear to compassion and empathy. Keep coming back ((((hugs))))
I feel I may have been wrong though. We had a tough week but made some progress and then I got angry with her on Saturday and she left. Im doubting myself and Im worried about her, being out there somewhere. Im gonna try and go to a meeting this week, I need something. I feel upside down right now.
