I just spent an hour going to the hospital my A was in and and hour coming back because he has checked himself out and I didn't know. His caseworker called me Thursday saying he was at the hospital because he told some police officers he was going to shoot them so they'd kill him (he doesn't have a gun). He's been threatening suicide for weeks and has been to a hospital a few times for that the past weeks. The police took him to the hospital, he was admitted, his electolytes were low and then when that evened out they sent him to the psych ward last night. My A called me yesterday from the hospital and last night worried about the atty who is overseeing an estate my A has inherited. The atty as stopped all communication with my A, me and the caseworker. I'm angry because my A knew I was coming to the hospital to help him find an atty for him to retain. Not my business or job I know, but my A doesn't have a phone. I'm angry because he didn't tell me he was no longer in the hospital. I'm angry because the hospital let a suicidal person walk out. I know none of this is my doing, but I am also angry at myself for once again being nice and wanting to help. I have been so good detaching, letting him fall without rescue the last five weeks. I don't want him to die and I know it's just a matter of time before I get that call telling me he killed himself. I've calmed down and prayed for strength so next time, should there be a next time, I can say NO again. I will say no. Time to get back to me.