As I lay in bed just hours before Christmas eve begins I know my Abf/fiancé's willingness to go inpatient 3days ago was a blessing from my HP. He is not only occupied & distracted working his program but he is secluded preventing him from his typical incessant calling/texting & I am unable to "run to him". This has brought me a suprising amount of comfort & peace these last few days. Just knowing life goes on for me & I can focus on being with my youngest daughter these few days. While I wanted him to get help I did dread the idea of him going in Dec 21st... As he had planned to go after Christmas. I even went to the apartment to pack/retrieve/store my lost belongings while he was away, but after a conversation with my dad I am no longer fretful about potentially loosing any or all the items. My HP has granted me such peace that I have not felt in quite some time - I don't know that I even remember the feeling as my choices have led to such turmoil with my A over the past couple years. I actually look forward to seeing my brother & his family tomorrow as we celebrate this Christmas. ( I've never been a fan of holidays to be honest) I'm thankful for the reprieve of insanity right now, in this moment & ever so blessed to even be able to see it, feel it & appreciate such a gift from God. Wishing you each a very Merry Christmas this season!