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I'm happy to say I'm learning every day to take care of me and not enage my son. Yesterday he called me in a panic that he lost his keys at a work site he was doing a odd job picking up trash for my AA friend. He also had a homeless man there that he gave a few cents to because he won't leave my son alone. My son tells me he thinks the man sold his keys. Well I have a extra key and was concerned to his saftey so I told him I was calling 911. My son said no and that he could take care of the man if need be. Please just come with the extra key.
Well I got there and found out my son FOUND the keys and he was going to end his work day and take the homeless man where he needed to go because that man found the keys on the property. My son must have dropped them during the day.
I took one look at my son and he was visibility under the influence of something. I went up and gave him a hug and couldn't smell alcohol so he must have taken a lot of Valium. He has the Valium for his seizures but I'm sure he took it because it does help him not drink.
What I'm happy about I didn't say a WORD like I would have in the past. He looked and me and said "WHAT" Just told him to be safe getting home and text me when he got there. Well he did get home he called. He asked me over and over what was wrong. SEE...he knew I knew he was not right. I just said I'm glad your home and said good bye. He then texted me with all the usual junk about he didn't do anything, he wasn't drinking, I was wrong, etc etc etc. I didn't text him back just let it alone.
I felt better than the usual fighting with him and getting mad he won't admit it. I stepped back and asked myself " what are my motives telling him he was under the influence just to have him lie about it"
Peace last night was what I got in return.
Let go Let God......
-- Edited by Cathyinaz on Wednesday 12th of December 2012 10:06:06 AM
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Well done, inventorying your motives and admitting powerlessness (((big hugs)))
I have no power to make anyone stop drinking either. and when I make friends with my powerlessness, it allows for real power to come in, just as it worked for you. once I got a taste of serenity, I want to choose it again and again. no more putting myself on the back burner, I matter too.
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Your story unfolding is awesome, truly. I thank you for sharing it's inspiring and you really should be proud of yourself. If nothing else, I imagine you are beginning to feel some peace in your life, instead of the craziness that once controlled it. Hugs!
