I don't know if I wanna laugh or cry? I am still waiting to get more results & one more blood test. It kills me to go thru all this w/o a final result! I want to laugh, makes sense to me. What can I do but put up w/ some of this nonsense & just shake it off. I am so saddened by this time of year & occasionally this is causing me to have some trouble sleeping--last year my dad died so I had a real reason to be sad & even confused a bit. I am so glad that at least the holiday season is upon us & that I have pretty much done all my shopping--what madness! I am grateful for this time of year & that I can enjoy each day. I don't have to project on how the 21st will be for me. I am kind of afraid of what might happen. I just have to create new memories & remember only the good times w/ DAD & MOM! Christmas I believe was my step-mom's favorite time of year. She loved to send presents & loved to see others enjoy them. I am so glad that she set an example for me. I am truly a giver in my own right.

So, I will try not to cry but if I do, it will be brief. I am sure that I will. But, I have to live one day at at time. I am not going to go on w/o a few laughs here & there too.

I leave you w/ a joke! A boy asks his grandma" How old are you?" His grandma said, " 39 & holding" The boy said to his grandma" What age will you be when you let go?" I love this one. We can all really relate I think. I hope you got a nice laugh.

Kathleen