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We live in a small subdivision of about 2000, and it seems as if every is on those roxicodone pills. I hate them , I hate them. Today we had a lady who has no eletricity, has small children, someone gave her the money to pay it and she bought drugs that she shoots in her arms, and she is over here crying to my A about DCF coming. And I can't be nice to here, I have no sypothny, I understand addiction to these what I call Devil Pills, but I mean these are litttle kids who need there Mom.
And then me and my A had it out becasue he heard thru the grapevine that I said we don't have sex because his D**k won't get up. Well I don't know who said it ,at this point I really don't care anymore. I found out his own son walked in and caught him shooting up. He was shooting up while we were arguing! God, Please help me I don't think I can take this any longer. I want so bad to leave. and then I think of his son who is the sweetest thing, just turned 13. What will happen to him? Do I call Dcf. MY A is so conivng and smart.
He has gotten us in so bad in debt I see no way out.
I had to sign off before I finished. Just wanted to add that I am making a plan B, i don't know how long that will take. As it is now I live in my Bedroom mostly. Sad but true. He also deals out of our home. I feel as if what I think or want doesn't matter. He told me the other Day that I was nosy because I ask why he was siting on the floor in our room.... he is very, very sick and sometimes I feel I am just as sick as he is. I try sooo hard not to react and mind my own business. If the police were to ever come to our house I know they would arrest me too. i told him I don't want to go to jail. I have never been and don't want to. I told him I would sing like a bird all his dirty little secrets, I just want this nightmare i live in to End. I just at this Point don't know what to do......
I'm so sorry you're in this situation. If I were in your shoes I think I would consult DCF or a social worker right away about what the options are for his son. You are very kind and generous to see the plight this poor kid is in. It may well be that your A would be glad if someone would take his son off his hands. Could that person be you? I know that would likely cause a lot of trouble (continuing contact with the A, as well as the son's understandable reactions to his whole situation). So that may not be a good option, but it would be good to know just what the options are and where you can try to make things better for him. Meanwhile it sounds miserable for you and I hope you can get free of this chaos soon. I can't remember if you have a meeting, but I hope so or that you can find one. Take good care of yourself.
Addiction shows no favorites, I lived in a beautiful neighborhood, rich town and yet I lived in my bedroom for almost three years. Only came out fo meals and work. One nite I thought I would lose it. We have to do what we have to do to survive.
I hope you figure a way out soon. Dont forget the addicts son has a higher power also. It might make the son choose another option if you do decide to go. The nitemare will not end until you take an action, try and go to a face to face meeting if thats possible.
