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I guess it certainly was a duck. LOL My A is in a hospital, having threatened suicide and trying to break out of the psych unit he was taken to under protective custody. Me, well, I am here, trying to figure it all out and i cannot even figure out what to make for dinner, let alone the rest of the mess I call my life.
Just don't know what to do, how to be supportive but take care of me. I know that insurance is going to be an issue if he chooses to go back into rehab. and I keep saying to myself, if he had some other disease like cancer and was going to die, i would certainly not deny him treatment, i would sell the house do whatever i needed to but i just do not know. How deep in debt am I supposed to get? I do believe that he wants recovery. The pain he is in is unbearable to watch, a slow suicide, sometimes accelerated like the other night.
This disease is so powerful and unless you are there living with it you just cannot grasp it. My friends say enough is enough. They cannot understand that I am not mad, just so deeply saddened, oh yeah and scared to death.
He hasn't worked since he left rehab in August and this would be the third detox since April. He had several sober years and just cannot seem to get it back. He is sick and it is sad and i am scared. Been there????
(((lynn))) sorry for whats going on with you. read my posts and im pretty much exactly where you are, i cant give you hope cause i lost mine. i can give you a (((hug))) and hope i get one back. your not alone.
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stay in the now...dont look forward, dont look back....your life is what you make of it
Hi, So Sad, I feel your pain. I have been going thru some of the samethings also. We own our own bussiness. Thing's are not going so well there. I have felt like I was keeping everything together But There came a time where I said I can't do this any more. so I then and started school past my class and now I'm looking forward to starting more classes, I finally realize I have to do for myself and children. I am the only one who can make life better for myself. Sure your heart breaks and the lonieness is awlful. But you must mend yourself.
