Patience has never been a strong trait that I possess. In my meeting Tuesday night the topic was on change, and I related to another share, always jumping from one job to the next, jumping from one boyfriend to the next, and yet I look back and I see how all those moves brought me to where I am today.

Last summer before Al-Anon I realized that I had married an A, and I had no idea what to do about it. I turned to my HP, and realized that I would not be receiving my answers instantly, it would be a process.

I believe that my HP brought me to Al-Anon. For years I had jumped and ran away from challenges and I was faced with a challenge that I couldn't just walk away from. Part of my prayers to my HP was for a heart change in my AH. I knew that only HP could do this.

To be perfectly honest I quit praying specifics more often then not because it was so overwhelming and I would just say I don't know how to pray so I just give it up. I would also pray about hurt feelings, frustrations, and overwhelming frustrations.

I believe that because of what I've learned I've been able to establish when to let things go, when to walk away, when to push my point. This is progress but not perfection, I'm always learning, always trying to do better.

There is a saying, well this is just how I am and you have to just get over it. Particularly prickly personalities like to use this saying. I've never liked it, and never agreed with it. My AH used to say this.

As I have been growing and learning my AH says that he is working to be less selfish. While we have times like last week when I was so frustrated, I do see the changes in both of us. Last night, during conversation over an incident that happened at work yesterday for him he talked about that very statement and how it's just wrong.

My heart about flipped over because that is such a direct indication of heart change. I needed that reminder. I need to also keep the focus on me and my program. Driving to work this morning I handed my AH up to HP again. He knows what he needs and He knows what I need.

I just share because it's easy to get so lost in the immediate drama and chaos that it may seem there will never be a light at the end of the dark tunnel. Eventually things do change, and while life is never going to be perfect it's why we are encouraged to take things one day at a time.

The reading in One Day at a Time today talked about fixing the loose screws in our own head and I so appreciated it!! When we fix our own loose screws we are better able to know what our next right step is!!!

Thank you!