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So..my ah is out again...staying over at a friends house an hour from here. Heres the thing...as much as I dont like the drinking, I do enjoy an evening ALONE once in awhile. Stupid as it sounds...i feel guilty for being happy having the night to myself. Ifeel as if it is a sub consious way of condoning the drinking...which I dont..but him not here tonight is not bothering me. The real thing that bothers me is that as an ultra responsible mom, I rarely get "me"time whereas because of his addiction he gets..more like takes, him time at least three times per week.
This whole alc marriage thing is such a strange journey..
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When all else fails...there is Faith, Hope and Prayer.
Sounds like a moment of serenity. Take it and try not to worry about what he is doing or the implications. Those moments are rare. It's good that you know how to have fun on your own. You would be in a far worse spot if you couldn't stand to be alone but also couldn't stand to be with him.
