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I am watching the Olympic Opening Ceremony with my kids while my AH is out drinking with his dad. I am thoroughly enjoying my time with my kids. I feel sad for him that he continues to miss out on so many moments with them. I am resentful for the fact that my daughter has so much daddy anxiety about when he's coming home and what he's doing. She misses him and just wants to know that he's safe. I Have very bad feelings for his dad who just came back into his life after 10 years and gives him all the alcohol he wants everytime they are together. I know it is my AH's choice to drink, but his dad should grow up and not enable him. It just sucks! I will always be here for my kids but I should not have to pick up the pieces for him so much. As I am typing, he is sending weird random texts as usual which I am ignoring, as usual. Well, thanks for letting me vent. It feels so good to come to this site to read and share. I really need to get to a f2f meeting. It's been a couple of weeks. I tend to skip when things are going well, which I know is a bad idea. Then when things go bad again, I leap back into al anon. I have to get better with my own recovery and get my children into alateen as well. I am in the process of getting them into counseling, but I think it will help them to talk to some other kids as well.
Thanks again for allowing me a safe place to share.
((((imom)))) you have some real awarenessess including needing to take action on them. You go girl!! It works when you work it and I've come to understand that the program is a "walk" program not a "talk" one.
I've never been at a loss for support and ESH from the winners in Al-Anon. They passed it on freely to me whenever I needed.
"imom"..i just posted something very similar. My child is eight...her anxiety is similar...tonight is better as at least she knows where he is (noycoming home) and can sleep w mom. My ah has no relationship w his family so he connects w other folks and drinksvto fill that gap. I too,get tired of the drama his alc and dysfunctional family brings to our home. I typiacally am resentful, sad and angry when my ah is out. Tonight im enjoying the peace....yet I feel strangly guilty. Glad to know we moms have each other. Blessings..
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