Hello everyone. Ive had a couple reletively good growth days this week. Yesterday, I finally got out and did something new. A friend from group invited me to yoga, and it was awesome. Both the experience itself, and making new friends. I also felt good about trusting my best friend with the details of our.mutual friends.negative behavior towards my recovery. I was afraid I loose her too, but it qorked out. I had a good session with my therist, in which we talked about how sometimes I can just go....blank. I am feeling that right.bow. My friendship ended, but her daughter and my kids love each other very much andd we went out for ice cream. She had some hand me over clothes to give to my daughter, so we went inside. My friends.parents were there. Her mom just kissed me and loved on me. She is a nice lady. Although, I do think she is one of the people who filled my driends head with crap. I visited for a while with them. Thankfully, my "friend" was not home. Now, I am home, and I feel it. I feel my.heart rate giving.me anxiety, I feel the unfocus of my brain, and its imability to really finish a thought. I am listless. Tired, but unable to rest or be productive. Anyone else ever experience this? If ao, whatdo you do? Im having tremendous difficulty identifying my feelings in this moment. I know its fear holding me back. Thank you for listening.