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You and your family will be in my prayers. I too found that dealing with addiction with a husband very difficult but with my child it was an entirely new level of pain.
I am so glad that you have found MIP and are shiang this difficult journey with us.
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 16th of July 2012 09:54:45 PM
Hi all, just came to read the message board and try to get right for the moment. I know where to come, now if I could only find the strength to reach out sooner rather than later..anyways my DD is back at recovery house after a crazy last few months...too long to go into but safe to say that I'm in the midst of caziness in my head worrying. She is a recovering (5 days) this time,by the gace of God, heroin addict and one of my five most precious gifts God has blessed me with ,needless to say I am scared for her life...I know I'm powerless, and I am praying like I have never prayed before thru all of this..a gift.....I always prayed daily but this has taken on a whole new meaning...she has been institutionalized more often than not since Feb...I am not new to this program ,and Iknow it works if I work it...seems it was a different ball of wax when I was dealing with my former husband as the A....no easier ,just very different for me...anyhow I'm gateful for this progam ,this room and this board...even if I only come and read silently, cry my tears and beathe knowing that I'm not in this alone and u all are in at as well, it seems a little less lonely..thank you all for sharing ur own ,exp strength and hope , its medicine for my soul when my faith is shaken...love u all~ Carla
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"I have held many things in my hands, and I have lost them all; but whatever I have placed in God's hands, that I still possess."
Hearing your own voice tell it is also very healing Carla. I'm grateful for your post and your honesty. I'm grateful for your experience as I've been there (still am to some degree) with my dry/not using son and the wreckage that continues when there is no recovery from the experiences of others. I followed the program after my first marriage to an addict (his mom), the next alcoholic relationship, the next alcoholic/addict wife and everything in and around my life that reveals the need for our program with a power greater than myself. Acceptance with trust and surrender has resulted in freedom and understanding and the habit or natural practice of our program. I no longer have to think about what to do or what part of the program to use...It does work and it is my life. I don't have a mothers heart, your heart and I do honor it. I am male and naturally come from the head 18 inches above my heart. What I know about my emotions, my heart and how it works comes from the women in Al-Anon who raised me early on so I've been taught to empathize and have compassion...something natural to you and all of the other women on this board. I'm feeling with you for your daughter I pray she finds a clean and sober life which she desires beyond anything else. I pray she comes face to face with her Higher Power and makes the conscious decision to stay there always. It's happened before, will happen again and its our experience. Keep coming back...please use your voice in here. Mahalo (((((Hugs)))))
Thank you all for your kind words and hope , breathing today a little easier because I "choose" to....Gosh it feels good to reconnect and open up a little bit..soft paths ;)
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"I have held many things in my hands, and I have lost them all; but whatever I have placed in God's hands, that I still possess."
