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I feel like today that I am not motivated & have the blahs. I guess that sometimes I need to be stimulated & paid atttention to more. I am seeking to find something outside of me that should come within. I don't have the strength to do what is needed to move forward today. I am not sure why I feel this way. Maybe it is the weather & that summer is coming & it doesn't feel like it. The forecast says that it is going to warm up in a couple of days. Maybe I will have that to look forward to. In the meantime, I have to live one day at a time.
My program really suffers when I get like this. I need to read or write. I even feel a little like spending money which I could but what is the point? I will probably regret some purchase & have buyer's remorse. So, as you can see I am not very positive today. I need so input from someone--instant results!
Im right there with you today. Im early in recovery, so Im there quite often...you know...when Im not curled up in a ball crying. Lol! Currently, Im sitting on the couch in my pjs. Im just rolling with it, I guess. I know that a lot of times, I feel this way because as bad as it was...my A met my need for company, hugs, and someone to goof off with & talk to about whatever. Plus, when it was bad...the drama gave me something to think about so that I could continue to avoid myself. So, Im starting to accept that I have to learn to feel level without tjat outside stimulous. ,an, it is hard. Superrrrr hard. Somedays, I just toil through cause tomorrow will arrive eventually. Sometimes, I rent movies or watercolor. Or I go to thrift store and spend less than $10. Today, Im gonna pick up the living room, and take a bath w/ 1 cup epsom salt, 1/2 cup bakinng soda, and a few drops of essential oil for 20 minutes to relax my system. *hugs* Oh and meetings manage to make me smiile.
I am very blah today too. My kids cannot even make me motivated today. I have a sinkful of dishes and I don't even care! I guess what I am selfishly trying to say is that you are not alone. I am sure tomorrow we will feel much better!
I have had to wade through plenty of blahs. I think its important to do the gratitude list. I found mailing it to someone every day was the only way that worked for me.
Some days we all have the blahs.....I find a good movie and a blanket can comfort me. Honestly, when I have the blahs I just relax and veg out on the sofa.....
