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I have been attending Al Anon meetings for several years and have said to myself and others many times Let Go and Let God. This morning I had an experience where I got it...it is even hard to put it into words. As I mentioned in earlier posts, my husband's recovery program is Celebrate Recovery, which is a christian based program. He is also on the leadership team. Although I occasionally attend the program and have come to love many of the participants in the program, I see the emeshment, so, for me, it is best I keep my distance. I try and keep a healthy balance for me, but I noticed this morning I am also trying the keep the balance for my husband..the same patterns I had when he was using (hmmmmm).
So, he called this morning and mentioned he would like to volunteer some of his time with the CR group on Sunday (Father's day). I reacted with "when is enough enough" (hmmmm). I "assumed" since it was Father's Day he would want to spend it with his family. As I reflected on my response and my feelings I realized what I was doing (trying to balance another addiction of his), chuckled to myself and had an awareness that he is continuing to choose another "substance" over his relationships and that is what's so. MY HP said "release this to me" and I could feel the release and the peace. Then I started planning some fun things I could do with the time on Sun.
Thanks for listening; I really like this forum and have found it so helpful.
Hugs, great share .. I know when I let go instead of forcing my will things in my life go sooooo much smoother!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I had a friend in AA who got into Celebrate Recovery and I know it is pretty all consuming. They did provide a big base of support for him but he had medical issues and I often wondered if he was overdoing it.
I know it is pretty normal for me to over commit. I have to work on it. Sometimes people have to hit a huge boundary block in order to stop doing it. I know I did. Exhaustion did me in.
I, too, have overextended myself and have said yes to please them or thinking I would get some perks. I have trained myself to say..."let me check, I will get back with you".
Thank you both for your shares...have a great weekend.
