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Hi MIP family....I haven't been posting much but check in here most days to read, re-focus and pick up reminders that it works if I work it.
In reading the post by YVR ((((((thank you YVR))))) it gave me food for thought, made me look harder at myself & placed me back on step 1.
Im spiralling into negativity, the resentment & hatred of the disease is gnawing at any serenity I may gain in the day. Communicating exhausts me, physically, mentally & emotionally, I'm semi isolating & probably going into a depression.
Mourning an alcoholic death (my son died of liver disease 8 months ago, aged 34) is very very difficult it has thrown up many things that I am not processing easily, but al-anon is helping me through, when I remember to let it.
I need to be more willing......
Tomorrow I will make an appointment with my doctor, I haven't been to a f2f since my son died in October but there is a meeting on Thursday this week which I will try my hardest to go to.
Anyway, I'm still here......reaching out, reaching in......this place means so much to me. Keeps me sane!!
Hoping for a big warm MIP hug (((((((((((here's one from me)))))))))))
oH Ness you know I care about you! I am so sad you are having to go through this. Am happy you came here to vent though.
You give yourself all the time you need to get to where ya feel some peace for a bit. That is a huge horrible loss. I don't believe we ever get over a loss like that. We just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Sometimes the sobbing comes out of nowhere. I mean years later. Please let yourself grieve and not allow anyone to tell you to get over it or well its been two years or whatever.
This loss is reshaping your life honey! Everything that was familiar is now changed. In time your familiar will "be" again.
Yes here is a hug, massage, warm tea, comfy chair, all you smell is honeysuckle, all you hear are the grossbeaks and humming birds and the river as it rushes by.
love to you, debilyn
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Sending you huge ((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))!!!!!!!! You are loved and your MIP family is always here for you! I hope you make that meeting. Sending you love and support on your journey!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
It is a program of progress not perfection. Take it one day at a time. We all have our ups and downs. When i have my downs I pile the Alanon program on me - meetings, literature, sponsor, and reaching out to others.