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Sending prayers and condolences concerning the death of your dad. You sound like you're doing a good job of staying present in today and keeping balance. I like the way you've found joy in your neice's special birthday - the beginning of her teen years as you come to terms with your father's dead. The gifts you bought her are thoughtful and personal. As far as the inheritance, Alanon suggests we sit with our feelings. You can wait. The check is a physical sign of what's true - your dad has passed away and he wanted you to have the inheritance as a gift from him. When you've worked through the feelings, you'll know that you have and I would bet you'll know how you want to spend the money. Hugs. TT
-- Edited by tiredtonite on Saturday 7th of April 2012 02:07:48 PM
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Yesterday I got some of the insurance money that my dad left us. It was a good thing & of course a sad thing. The check even said on the attachment that they were sending comfort or something at the time of our loss. It was quite a big check for me to receive because I haven't had that kind of money to spend in a very long time. It is not like I won the lottery or anything but the money will come in handy when I figure out what to do w/ it.
I am sad today too because every day I miss my dad but yesterday I felt some closure on his death by receiving the check. I haven't been down to my home-town where my parent's lived since they died so it doesn't seem like they are gone sometimes.
I am basically obsessing over the fact that I got this money. I am actually afraid that I might blow it & that is definitely not what my dad would want me to do.
Changing the subject a little: Thurs. is my niece's 13th birthday--I am excited for her. I remember turning into a teen is a big deal! I wonder how her parents feel about their baby girl turning 13. I am sure they will have some big party for her--I won't be there but that is OK. I sent her a locket & some other stuff to let her know that I love her. I even made a card for her complete w/ stickers which I think she would like.
I am a little excited about the future but I know that I need to slow down. I will keep you all updated on my health as I know that whatever happens to me I am sure you would like to know. I am still blessed w/ bipolar disorder so I need to maintain my sanity through this time.
Well, Hoot, if you find you can't figure out what to do with the money, I'd be happy to take it off your hands so you don't have to worry about it. :) Hehe...I'm sure you will maximize every penny to its fullest potential.
You sound like a very sweet aunt...I love my nieces. I get to spoil them, enjoy them, and then send them on their way. :)
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Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible be found in us. -from Pema Chödron's When Things Fall Apart
