The material presented
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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have not wrote in a while but I am on reading whenever I feel I need my al-anon jolt, like coffee. I feel an ease about my program right now and I know I am exactlty where I need to be. When I make mistakes, I don't have my melt downs in my head anymore. I just accept it and move forward. I keep moving forward.
My cat, Fay, had her kittens. I watched the birth and I have to admit I cried. Since my new found spirituality things hit me emotionally now, not like they did before. Fay is an amazing Mom and she is blind. She cannot see them but that didn't matter. She is very protective and just a wonderful Mum.
My husband is four months sober. I am very happy for him. The most beautiful thing about our relationship is that now we can talk spiritually and deeply. We don't have to focus on what others are doing any more or find validity in our relationship over others' fails. Since he has his program and I have mine its like we have both changed in the same direction.
I can truly say, whole heartedly, that I am thankful my life fell to pieces, I am even grateful I was lied to and manipulated. It was humbling and my ego needed some humility. So here I am, I can see the changes in me and I am proud of myself. I have lost some friends, or am losing them, because I do different things now than I used to do. I don't drink anymore, I don't go out. I paint, I go to meetings, I talk with people, I read, I go to study groups, I walk... its a different life but it has so much more meaning. I have these moments when Im not even of this world anymore, I can literally feel my higher power, like electricity, through me and I get goose bumps. I came to al-anon very confused, weak, unhealthy, and lacked any faith at all. I now love myself, feel strong, feel healthy, and have faith spilling from me. I have only been in the program since September, so I can't even imagine what it will be like for me years from now. I have so much gratitude for this new way of life I found that is far from boring and to al-anon.
Thank you to MIP for all your support on my journey, even if I don't respond all the time I am reading and wishing the best for everyone.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I seldom respond to posts these days. Perhaps a phase I'm going through or it may be that I realize that I don't hold the answers to other people's challenges.
However, I was drawn to respond to your post today. I want to say THANK YOU for it.
I can relate to feeling grateful for having life fall apart. My life shattered 1 year ago. It was necessary; I see that now. My ego needed humbling as well. The "Big, Painful Shatter" was a blessing in disguise. Al-Anon, as well as other similar sources, have been a big part of putting my life on a peaceful, productive track and getting me in touch with the HP of my understanding.
Appreciate your posts. Gail Michelle
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
I too feel that energy running through me... thats where I get my higher power beliefs from... those energies that are all around us, and IN US are the most beautiful vibrations.
Thanks everyone for responding. I am packing for my trip, waking up early for our road trip to NC! We have a wedding to attend. Have a wonderful rest of the week and weekend.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
