The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So i logged into facebook and temptation got the best of me .. hate that .. i looked on my x's wall and he wrote to a girl asking her how she is, etc.. but i know him and i know he's trying to talk to her .. it's not paranoia .. it's a pattern after a breakup for him.
As soon as i saw it, i felt sick .. i have recovery and still can't believe he would rather run than stay and get better. i'm sad. I feel in short betrayed, denied, rejected, embarrassed, unloved, humiliated, unappreciated, used, confused, hurt, abandoned.
It's only been 6 months; wondering if this is ever gonna go away all the way and thinking (I should) be over 11 years by now.
I am sorry for the sadness and pain you are now experiencing. This disease is indeed dreadful
Please be gentle with yourself. You are grieving the loss of your dream It takes time. One day, one moment at a time the pain lifts, One day you will find that this to has passed
