Interesting awareness I had on obligation .. somewhere in the meeting  read, I heard that each of us has an obligation to work through what we are, where we are, when we are .. we have been given so much and come so far and our shares regardless of what they are will help someone in the future going through the same. It was the understanding the future of alanon depends on our willingness .. Because of our courage, they will get the hope and strength they need .. I believe that is one of the many gifts of the program; that the gift isn't just for me alone to use and receive .. I realise for me there are times i get so into my program that I begin to lose the understanding that alanon is a we program .. i've been thinking more of the esh we share and how it just may be the one piece someone needs to hear .. the greatest freedom of this program is that we all move at different paces; in here it's ok to take "our time and not compare it to someone elses .. happy joyful and free from judging .. even when it appears we are not moving; we are ..

Whenever I  am in a meeting face to face or online, etc., if there's something I'm afraid to share, then i'm forgetting the above and others who need my esh .. we all have something to offer and in here, we'll always have more to give regardless of how many times we give it ..  giving is where the growth is ..

I know no matter how many times I may share, even on the same issue .. I am surrounded by others who Understand as few others can .. Others would not understand my sharing redundantly but alanon members usually can ..

what led to the above share was this: over the past few weeks before or after meetings, i've heard a few persons in f2f mention how some alanon members are sharing only negative .. i've actually had a member say to me personally, "i didn't come here to hear something negative."  Reality: The disease of alcoholism & it's effects is negative .. we are all in different places at different times .. later i was told she figured out what was going on with her and what hit home through my share; it triggered her, etc, and therefore turned into a blessing .. I was told later that dwelling on fear isn't from God .. what God told me is that again the disease of alcoholism isn't from God .. Bringing the fear out into the light is .. that's how it loses it's power to dominate our thinking and that's how we turn it around with the help of higher power .. we come here to share on the things we need and yet if we're honest with ourselves and others regardless of the degree of our share, there is always the hidden gift if we remain open to receiving it .. every awareness leads us along the path toward serenity & joy ..

Wishing much serenity to each member who shares ..

I'm grateful for the willingness to share on any level at any given time .. and for the awareness we're not in a program of denial, people pleasing, or judging, we're in a fellowship of equals working toward serenity, wisdom & healing & above all honesty and we're in it together. thanks so much for the loving fellowship i've received in here ..

-- Edited by MeTwo2 on Saturday 17th of March 2012 07:12:03 AM

-- Edited by MeTwo2 on Saturday 17th of March 2012 07:15:29 AM