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I had a great time this morning. Took one of my dogs for a three hour hike up the mountain with a friend and his dog. I would have liked to take both of my dogs but it would have been too much for my older guy. It was nice to be in a place where the dogs could get off their leashes. They played & ran & chased each other the whole time. I got a pretty good workout too. Got home to find A drunk, sittiing on the patio with blood on his face and shirt. I asked him what happened and he wasn't even aware of it! Said he didn't know what happened. I'm guessing he fell down again. This after less than two months ago having to go get stitches and IV fluids from falling down and hitting his head. I suggested he might want to wash the blood off his face and went into my bedroom. I'm convinced he's going to drink until he kills himself. I've gotten very good at detaching, but sometimes it's still so hard to see what he's doing to himself.
I'm sorry, but good for you for detaching and enjoying your life. I went hiking yesterday but I can't take my dog anymore, either. She's a 14 year old shepherd mix rescue dog and she just can't get around well anymore. Just walking 2 houses down to the park is enough exercise for her. We did take her to the park earlier today and our neighbor's have a new puppy that was there. My poor old girl just wanted to turn around and go home rather than be tortured by that little ball of energy, LOL!
Sending you lots of support today! Hope you enjoy the rest of YOUR day!
It is hard to witness someone destroying themselves. But...that's their journey. That's their journey.
Your hike sounds beautiful! More of that!
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Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible be found in us. -from Pema Chödron's When Things Fall Apart
It is hard!!! I am so glad that you took the time to hike and enjoy part of the day. I have been where you are and know that taking even a short walk, listening to music or gardening helps to take the focus off the obvious destruction you are witnessing . It also gave me strength to detach and go on one one more day.
Coming here and sharing your heart makes it a little easier. You are not alone
Sorry to read this Pineapple .. as i work the program remembering what we bring out of darkness into the light loses its power to dominate our thinking .. through face to face sharing and the spiritual healing that takes place, i was reminded through a reading that no matter how hard things get for me, there is usually a member whose path is even darker .. the alcoholics .. when i read that it helped me to have a breeze of compassion by recognising there is little chance for light when we refuse to open the blinds .. very hard to watch but so grateful to know we are not alone and thank God i have places i can bring my own dark secret shares into the light .. i'm glad you got to walk; i used to think it was all so useless to do something like that when chaos was all around me but today i'm learning it puts a break in my obssessions and allows me to love myself through action .. the reading i found that i love is this ..
My problems will still be there whether i decide to gnash my teeth or build a sand castle .. that was powerful for me .. one who usually decides Nothing i do will help .. the little bits of wisdom we get here really do add up .. keep sharing .. and wishing you much serenity .. the power greater than us can help us keep our serenity through the worst of situations .. In my thoughts and prayers as well ..
love the share above with the little ball of energy .. i needed the visual and i needed the lol .. thanks ..
So glad you posted an update and it's hard to see someone we love hurt themselves over and over. Great program work!!! It was a beautiful day today!!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
(((((Pineapple))))) My HP knows only to well the picture you have painted here and am sure that HP is abiding with you both with love in the heart for this is what my HP's name is. Your alcoholic had a period of time not long ago where he didn't drink and there was another guy there for him at that time. I pray for a reenactment of that event and that it is on your alcoholic's memory also. Prayers for you both. (((((hugs)))))
