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I have lived in a asmall part of Liverpool in Englad all my life.
for a couple of years there has been a local alcoholic who is a nuisance but harless who lives on the streets so I thought. local people ive him clothes etc once a tent in the winter.
I went to the bus stop before to go to my meeting, I have split up with my alcoholic he is in AA for three years it is not because of the drinking its other stuff. anyway I was going to a meeting and the local alcoholic was at the bus stop he was very drunk talking to himself etc. I looked at the poster for bus times he apologised because he was in the way. he fell couple of times banging himself etc. otherpeople at the bus stop looked scared. I wasnt a bus came and the other people got on it but I realsied my bus had already gone. The alcoholic started a coversation saying he was not a bad person. I told him everyone in the community new he was not bad. He said you are lovely etc etc To cut a long story short told him to take care of himself he a worth it and left. He really did not seem to understand how I could treat him like a human.
it is so sad I can see how much this disease eats away at a persons self worth. How I helped the disease by attacking my ex partner. I have left becaust I want to heal and love me and i hope one day my ex a can truly love himself.
see the problem is because I understand I attract sick people just need how to have compassion yet take care of myself in the process.
(((Tracy))) Good for you for showing compassion where most others wouldn't. It took a long time for me to be able to view my A with compassion. I'm ashamed to say I called him names, put him down, said derogatory things to him before I realized he was in the throes of a disease- Since then I've seen that even though he drinks every day/all day, it's not because he likes it. He can't help it and although I don't like it, I have learned to have compassion and empathy for him. Compassion is good, but taking care of ourselves is just as important. Keep taking care of you.
In support Tracy...you really do deserve the same kind of love and measure of it that you give away to others. What do you think it feels like to be loved by Tracy. Must be awesome. You're caring and I hope the alcoholic felt it and wants to get more self care himself. Alcoholism...such a very sad disease. (((hugs)))
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
