When this older couple came up for a visit, they came to tell me my dear friend, yes the 3rd one, has a bad cancer.

She, my mother and I were were and are very close. She helped Mother so much when she was dying of b cancer.

I know she did not let me know becuz she knows what we went thru with mother.

this last three weeks has been a succession of so many life jabs. three loved ones fighting cancer, tenants destroyed the designated wild life area around my big house, fighting to get them out, have not paid rent in 3 mo. am scraping with all the court costs. I finally asked this last one to be waived.

Pain med just makes me sick.

But two friends are supporting me and really there. Am so thankful.

Of course this tenants turns out to be an A which helps in ways as I know it is no use to talk to them. I can see what makes the madness so apparent, not apparent to him. so I can just do the steps and the result should be very ok.

Now someone is working on buying it. which means more hassle for me I cannot handle.

The tools from Al Anon are pricelss to me. They are part of my life every day. Let go let God, does it really matter? Cannot rationalize insanity,

So many jewels just pop into my head. I am going to use the ask for what you need.

The judge will have to be patient w me. In court I am jelly. for one it hurts to sit on those hard benches. its actually a horrible experience. two friends are coming with me.

Even though I don't have to live with an A, they seem to be everywhere in my life. I am so grateful for Al Anon.