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So I just got home from my second meeting and it went GREAT! I opened up a little and it felt good to relate to others and my thoughts about things be heard. I was so happy that I had the chance to be there. We read through some of the Alanon material and I loved reading then discussing what it meant to us. I thought it was AWESOME. I'm thinking of going to one tomorrow. We'll see. Unforturnately I have to balance gas, and work and hauling my son around. I have you guys here though.
I'm sorry I'm not really active with comments but I am still learning and truthfully not sure what to say to some of the situations on here but I know I can relate to at least 80% of the feelings. I'm so glad I've found Alanon. I want to keep working the program
My mom went with me and she wasn't feeling good but it was rough. I felt like she was going to judge what I said. I really didn't feel completely open enough to just say what I want. I am constantly looking for her approval and unfortunately I still feel attached at the apron. My sisterA is so quick to hurt my mom and not show her respect or care for her opinion that I guess maybe i feel like I shoud try to fill in. I think that's gonna be part of my recovery of self too! I dont' know. I'm just talking, out loud, again lol.....
Really though I did say somethings cause I figured why not. I just felt uncomfortable and I'm going to be honest. I don't think she would go to Alanon without me and I'm not sure I would want her at my homegroup. That's so mean, I know. She said today that she was still pissed that he life had to change because of my sister. That she never wanted a life like this. It sounds like she just hasn't come to terms yet but will not open up to understand that. Again, I don't know. Just venting. I could be wrong. I'm not perfect.
I need to get a hold of my life and that's what I'm doing. I still have issues beyond expression but I am working on them one day at a time. My ABF is on board and willing to support me in my recovery, as I am with his.
I am so glad for you that you are already finding some relief. This is the beginning of a wonderful journey for you. Though I sometimes wish I never had to deal with my husband's drinking at all and that it wasn't an issue, I am often so grateful that it brought me to Al Anon. The improvement to every aspect of my life has been remarkable, even areas not involving my husband. It is really the best thing, aside from having my children, that has happened to me. Sending you support on your journey. Easy does it. The program works best for me when I let go of my expectations and stop putting pressure on myself and let it and my life unfold gently. Hugs!
So I just got home from my second meeting and it went GREAT! I opened up a little and it felt good to relate to others and my thoughts about things be heard. I was so happy that I had the chance to be there. We read through some of the Alanon material and I loved reading then discussing what it meant to us. I thought it was AWESOME. I'm thinking of going to one tomorrow. We'll see. Unforturnately I have to balance gas, and work and hauling my son around. I have you guys here though. 
My mom went with me and she wasn't feeling good but it was rough. I felt like she was going to judge what I said. I really didn't feel completely open enough to just say what I want. I am constantly looking for her approval and unfortunately I still feel attached at the apron. My sisterA is so quick to hurt my mom and not show her respect or care for her opinion that I guess maybe i feel like I shoud try to fill in. I think that's gonna be part of my recovery of self too! I dont' know. I'm just talking, out loud, again lol.....
LoVe & hUgS