Yes, there are times when people get to me but they still have many reasons to rock! I am so grateful I want to cry! My life is so much richer & I am so blessed. I may be finalically blessed & that makes a difference but the truth is I am mostly blessed by the prescence of the good no great people that I have in my life today. Two of them gave me a tree yesterday--& boy was I happy!

I could go on & on about all my many blessings! I am sitting here counting them but I can't count that high! My Ah had a great conversation w/o the TV on last night--he said we stayed up talking after 1 am. I needed the conversation months ago but I was too afraid to speak up & say what is on my mind & heart that I didn't. I had to go to a meeting last night feel better than I have in a long time before I could be totally honest w/ him. He thought that my raising my voice was a bad thing but I thought that was the only way to get through to him because he wasn't listening! Truth is is that he was listening I just wasn't being HEARD!

So now I sit here knowing that my relationship with him is worth saving & my other relationships are worth growth, acceptance tolerance among other things. I am still a work in progress but I will always have the ability to grow in my own way & time.

My Ah is showing me about tolerance. That is what we decided to work on especially in our marriage & w/ my mom. We need to let her do her thing & just tolerate her actions. She is not a well woman & I need her to be just so. That is a crock because I can't control her or her disease.

Well...I am going to stop here & remember that like a guy said in the meeting last night maybe some of the things we forget to say aren't worth saying. They may not really NEED to be said.

Kathleen