The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today, I came across this saying: "follow your heart, but take your brain with you". The dichotomy is striking; another exercise in simple, but not easy. I sat here running it through all situations, pinpointing the struggle to fear. For me it is an exercise in giving myself permission to find another choice, satisfying both my head and my heart and turning a disappointment into an opportunity. I do not feel I can arrive at this type of balance without the support of my HP, the Alanon principles, and my Alanon family.
I recently let go of a relationship that felt right, but was not right for me. It has been a long time since I've been able to start trusting myself and my decisions. Although, I want to trust my HP, turn things over, I've been faking it until I make it. Well, perhaps, this is my first small success; while ending things didn't feel at all comfortable, I did not do it feeling alone. Although I miss this person, I know that his HP is watching over him and will guide him for whatever is best for him... the same as my HP is doing for me.
It was my plan to continue to live life and give myself a break, but HP has placed a lot of wonderful people in my path this week- completely out of the blue. The flurry can be fleeting, but it is what is in this moment that counts. That and the knowledge that I'm in transition towards another life step.... or, at least another step towards diminishing fear.
I'm now trying to work it for diminishing my fearfullness in taking another life step, careerwise. I may have to settle for feeling fearful, but knowing I'm not alone... no matter how many times I step off of the proverbial cliff, it seems just as scary.
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I like your share. I feel the same way you do about HP and Al-Anon being there so you wont be alone. We will never be alone when you have your HP to be there with you.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
I love that quote and fits my current situation. I've already committed it to memory and will think of it when I get down or second guess myself and the decisions I may be forced to make in the coming weeks.
