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I have been praying deeply to God to grant me compassion for all people. I am letting go of the judgements I make and asking God to fill my judgmental attitude with compassion instead. I make progress than I take steps backward. I most judgmental over those who judge haha.. this is the irony. They make comments about a client or a co-worker and I think how rude they are to judge... and in the process, I am judging. The good news if I realize it but the hard truth is stopping the attitude. All I can do, I guess, is pray that my HP see that I am ready to remove this character defect.
It has helped me greatly when I had this out of body (type) experience. As I listened to each person speak, I envisioned their soul. I just pictured a color around them, twirling about, and I realized how much God loves each and every person. Now that I am growing with my HP and learning of his love for me it is important that I keep in mind that this love he has for me, he has for everyone. I believe EVERYONE, even rapists and murderers are loved by God unconditionally. With this in mind, it has helped me to realize that even those people who wrong me; the ones that I want to judge or I want to resent or I want to confront.. they are loved by God so much. Resenting them hurts me spiritually, confronting them can be useful if it is in a constructive manner and not just to take their inventories for them, and judging them only takes my recovery back three steps.
Therefore that leaves me with acceptance, compassion, and love. This is what I ask my HP to fill my heart with. Acceptance- for other people and their way of life even if my morals do not agree with it. Compassion- to remember that everyone is struggling in this life and no one's trouble is greater than another because it is all that person knows. And Love- for other human beings since we are all little colorful souls that God holds in his hands. Acceptance, Compassion, Love.
Every person is capable of loving themself through becoming closer to their HP. There is hope for EVERY person.. even those who say that there is NO hope for others, there is hope for both. There is hope for the judgmental of the judgmental, even. There is always hope.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
oh well- done. not beig judgemental- i takes constant work- as we all do it- and are all guilty of doing it every now and then- it seems to be like human nature. so id like to strive above it. but i agree- it always takes work- and we always slip.
