The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
With all of the resources I've tapped into in the past year or so (Alanon only past few months) I'm starting to feel more grounded - more aware and am feeling some growth. I know I have a loooong way to go and life will always be a place for growth but maybe it won't always be a struggle. :)
I've been turning things over to my higher power and the universe (such a foreign concept to me) and I'm actually seeing some "feedback".... It may not be what I expected but it's not painful. It is what it is and I'm gonna keep letting go more and more each day. If not each day then in increments that I can stand. I am an impatient person... I know that. I get frustrated that I know in my head, logically, the direction or decisions I should go or make, but I have a problem with action and I have a problem with forgiving myself that my recovery/journey may not be at the pace at which I always think it should be. But ya know what? I'm doing it. Who knows what tomorrow will bring but I know that today - I feel hopeful for feeling good. I see some light. I have a nice day planned with my daughter and I held my ground on things that I knew I needed to.
Love and hugs to you all! Thank you HP for this day and whatever it may bring.
Your post warms me. I think no matter how difficult a situation there is, often we can find hope when we lean into our HP. I can see the beauty of hope in your message and that is a gift to us all.