Oh limited time and so much to say ... here it goes. This morning I had a tiny event happen that made me take note of how strange it truly is to not feel responsible for any one else's happiness. I like the fact that I can enhance another person's happiness or do something that makes them happy but lifelong happiness is my job for me ... basically the old saying, you can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink, has new meaning to me. I have this vision in my head of being an old war horse content to be standing by the lake, mingling with others there and enjoying the water instead of trying to round up the stragglers and tell them how great it is over here. Being around people who appreciate what I have to give to the relationship, who need nothing from me has taught me more awareness in a couple months than all that ramming my head into the same old wall did for decades.

And Sparky on her last chemo appointment had an untrasound showing a 70% reduction in tumor size. Tomorrow she is having surgery to remove portions of both kidneys. She is meeting or exceeding the best hoped for results on each treatment and procedure so far. And there is no sign of the cancer having spread to her lungs or stomach. In th ebest case scenario after surgery tomorrow she will go through another round of chemo and the remaining cancer cells will all die and her kidneys will grow as much as possible to support a toddler and then child and then adult. I think she can do it :)

Gotta run! Thank you!

Jen