yes it hurts and thats just part of it and i may be being played i dunno,and i could be just setting myself up for another big disappointment like always im good at that setting my self up he may and he may not ever call me agin,i know how they r when they find them a new cody to use ,they push the old away in a min.sooooo im gonna try and get my gaurds up with whatever i get cause im asking for it im hopeto just have freindly talk and just go from thee but at the same  time keeping my sanity and staying in my world not his and staying and sticking to my beleifs also not his for sure ,lol can be (warped).i did dump him,and then tried to get back and then when he agreed and tried to i cut him off like cold,lol,vengeful me,so i need not to expect nothing but nothing from him since te new girl is at his side ,she dont know it but she is in for a ride of her life,rollercoaster is the word,and swindle her out of anything and paying his way and lol she wont know whats going on she willbe going in circles he is good at it all ,i hope she gets it anyway,i hate to be that way cause i know im just jealous of all the affection he does give and love was great ,and that i do miss alot,but as for all the other crap i just mentioned well sounds very familir huh alanon freinds?she may not get all that he dished out to me he may treat her better i dunno,but as for me this is my life and im gonna live it,ty all,,,hugs and more hugs,,,,lookingup