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kris10


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I love you like..

Did you hear me?

I love you like...

You won't come near me?

I love you like it's a question.

Like...

If I say it enough will you give me affection??

A sign, a glimmer of hope?

I love you like the memory.

The memory of what it was like, what it should be.

But see, that's just me.

Imagining... All the things we used to dream.

Back when day was all ours and you actually closed your eyes to sleep at night.

When You didn't mind to just cuddle until it was light.

But see, that's all different now.

Cuz now it's like you walk around with a cloud.

Or maybe a heavy fog, cuz threw it you can't see me.

Thick like cotton in your ears, you can't even see me.

I only say "me" cuz lets face it, theres noone else but ME.

Why can't you see?

I'de do anything to show you I care.

I've stuck by your side to show you I'll always be there.

How the hell did our dream turn into such a nightmare???

Sooo quick.

It's like you gave up.

Sorry.... No such luck.

Now I'm looked at like I'm the dumb 'xxxx'.

Like...

"Shhhh, don't say anything she's around".

"She'll never know, ha ha, she's a clown".

Or maybe the bad one.

Like...

"She won't let him have any fun".

But I DON'T hate you.

Like...

the silence until you need something.

Hate you like..

Stealling when I'de give you anything.

Like...

Telling me to shut up or acting like you just don't give a 'xxxx'.

I DON'T hate you like telling me to go away.

Like...

Staying in bed all 'xxxx' day...

Until that one call.

That one call changes it all.

So quick I look twice to see if it's real.

Like..

A frown turned upside down.

Like...

The light of day has somehow been found.

Now he loves me like I love him!!

Like...

Live it up cuz this won't last.

Like...

Hopefully his "love" won't wear off too fast...

 

 

                    By: ME



-- Edited by canadianguy on Tuesday 13th of December 2011 03:11:34 PM

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Seeing my life in your poem, thanks for the share, ((((hugs))))

It's all so confusing,,, the only way out I see, it to turn and focus on me.

I want to understand it all, because then I could fix it.

Once it was fixed what would still be? I still wouldn't see me.

But trying to make it make sense never works out and makes me sick and miss all my life.

Did my Higher Power allow me travel this path so I would learn to turn and focus on me? 



-- Edited by glad on Thursday 13th of October 2011 05:30:32 AM

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Awesome poetry, I write too and am glad to see some other work shared here. You embraced all the back and forth feelings and the question of love, hate, like... thanks, great share. HUGS

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Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me... 

 
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