Now my life is not as enmeshed with an alcoholic partner, I have to be so careful to stay on my side of the street.  One of my former co workers is up and leaving the job he has and moving across country.  He has some delusion he can get unemployment when he has left his job.  I'm at a place where I just have to let go.  I know he's moved in similar situations a number of times (and he's still here!).

I also know in my impetuousness I've left jobs.  I also know that I've moved across country with no job too (it was an absolute disaster!). 

I find that I can get really uptight in situations where a clerk is too slow in getting my order at Starbucks.  I have a bus to catch and have to be on time for work. 

I lived in total over reaction day in day out for 7 plus years, probably more than that because I lived around people who were always doing self destructive things.  I know that took a great toll on my physical health and my emotional well being.

I really like my co worker but I have to let go and let God in this situation and I know that means I go to no contact for a while.  What a test to my boundaries because I can go into caretake mode in a second.

I am doing so much better with my roommates. The less I see them and speak to them the better.  I have to continously remind myself what' s my problem and what's there's.  Unfortunately that means not interacting that much.  I find people can lie about the smallest things and such actions are a huge red flag for me.  If someone lies about small things they will lie about everything. Do I really want to stand on my head working out what's a lie and what isn't?  Not really.  That's guessing and who needs that?

I have health issues at the moment, a sick cat (who's getting better) a Christmas season in retail coming up.  That's enough on my plate. 

Why did I ever think overloading my plate was something virtuous and kind?

Kind to who , not me that's for sure.

maresie.