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In the moring I have to find the money (200) to pay for a neighbours car to be fixed I bumped it when my ex mother in law died ;last weekend. I was going to use the money my abf has gone missing with that he owes me. I am in some financual trouble at mo and moving home just before christmas. My ABF knew all this I am so hurt I know he is ill but his timing could not have been worse. My feelings move from angrey to utter hurt. I did not lend him the money he owed it because he took my car last year and I had to pay to get it out the pound when he got caught by the police.
I know I am powerless, I am praying for guidance and trying hard to have faith that I will managed to sort all this mess out. I know my ABf is running now and will be disgusted in him self but it doesn not stop it from hurting. My daughter asked how he could be like this whe he knows her nan has just died. the damage is too great. I can not go back. I have to let the money go and tell my self he is sick and just trust Hp, its hard.
alcoholism makes them do some disgusting stuff it is so hard not to take it personal.
I have to concentrate on the good. we are getting a new house I have two beautiful healthy kids I am blessed in so many ways I do not want this disease to take the focus off the good in my life but again its hard.
huga tracy xxxx
-- Edited by Tracy on Tuesday 27th of September 2011 01:52:20 PM
The title of your post says it all for me Tracy...and I am grateful it was waiting when I got here. No matter what is going on in my life today...God will not give me any more than I can handle and that God and I can't do together. I needed the simpleness of the title for your post and the story you connected with it. Often times I think what I am going thru is just the worst that could happen to anyone and then I listen.
I am at that place today too. I saw the tagline of your post and said to myself my higher power is throwing rocks at my head. In my morning prayer and meditation I asked my HP for a billboard as a sign because I just cant see how he is showing up in my life today. Well I got it, that billboard sign is from the title of your post.
I do so appreciate your inspiration for writing this afternoon. It is a keen reminder to me to Expect A Miracle.
You have a great program to know what to give over to your HP and have faith that things are going to be ok. Sending you lots of extra support and love during this time.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
May your trust in your HP just keep getting stronger.
From my experiences, it is best to focus on what is going right in my life, especially in challenging times. Good for you to have that ability. What a wonderful example you are to your children.
Keep the faith
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
