The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
We finally had our internet access set up last week; it was tough going a month without home-based internet access, but I survived.
I am struggling mightily right now. Losing my job has left me directionless. I had been doing so well detaching from my AH, but over the past month I have backslid tremendously. His drinking has increased significantly over the past month, and I obsess about it all the time (fortunately, I am mostly keeping my mouth shut about it).
I just keep trying to refocus myself on Tom' s words of wisdom...my AH is either going to drink or not (or be emotionally abusive or not, etc. etc. etc.), what am I gonna do? My AH (who is working second shift right now) has decided to join a bowling league after work with some of his co-workers on Wednesday nights. This means he will be out drinking (because let's just be realistic here) on Wednesdays until 2 a.m. (which is when the bars close in our new town). I'm trying so hard to spend my energy on things I CAN control, and give him over to my HP...
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Welcome back Stephanie! I remember being at home new in the program while they were out drinking I got on this very board and started reading. It really helped me refocus my mind and take a break from my circular thoughts of "him" and what is he doing. MIP was the relief I needed when it was too late to call my sponsor or a program friend. This board became a source of comfort and support because I grew tired and was able to fall asleep inevitably. Before my anger would just keep me awake then I would start sending texts and calling.
I am so glad you are reconnected. The miracle is that there are so many of us here who really understand your problems like few others could. And, the best thing is this place is always open.
