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My wife whom I never knew how much I truly loved and would miss has still not returned from her rehabilitation program in Florida. She has been gone for 60 days and I still have no information on her return of if she plans to try and save our marriage. It has been over a week and half since I have spoke with my 10 year old Daughter or my wife's Mother due to my wife's Therapist and Sister decision for me not to contact the Family until she returns. I am very confused and lost not to add the mountain of bills and unpaid mortgage I have been struggling with. My wife left a angry and confused Husband, I am not that Man anymore thanks to being Saved and my Al Anon family. I have made very good progress on the mortgage and bills, but my anxiety is horrible. This is something I have never experience and is what my wife had been battling for years. I pray and continue to find meeting and attend them at least 4 to 5 times a week lately. i just hope I can hold on to my sanity and find the serenity I need to get me through.
It does get easier and all I can say is some days it's more like one min at a time because an hour seems to much to handle. It sounds like such a difficult situation. I'm sure the little girl is just as confused and angry as you have been. I hope your wife decides to get help, in the mean time it sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to do which is continue going to meetings, continue to focus on yourself and continue to live one day at a time to the best of your ability.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Keep coming Phil... I am not sure I understand the whole thing, but I do know that when I work on me and go to meetings, post here, talk with my sponsor...that I feel better and I can handle my life on my life's terms... Take care! Easy does it....
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-youfoundme
Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
Thank you all fo you input and advise. I will continue to work on me and try not to let my heart and anxiety get the best of me. I have a meeting tonight at 8;30 and cant wait to get there. I am just so lost not knowing what is in store for my Daughters school and well the rest of our lives. But like I am trying to learn and push into my codependent brain to let go and let God and Day by DAY.
