The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today I had a quiet day at work and I felt ok. My fiance drank last night, and when I picked him up from work, I knew it. It was 11pm. I didn't react. I kept remembering what I have learned here and am learning from my sponsor... I remained calm. We came home and went to bed. He wasn't terribly drunk, not in a black out, but had drank enough that I could see it. The thing is, I was not feeling out of control this time. I had this calm that washed over me, so to speak. When we woke this morning, our normal routine began. I asked him how he felt. He knew then, that I knew he had drank the night before, and he said "not so good". He did get sick, but also made our smoothies, we had a nice quiet morning. I kept wanting to ask more..."how much?" "when?" "Why are you doing this at work?" but I kept bringing my focus back to me in my head. He did tell me how much he drank, and I said "I am sorry you did that again, today is a new day..." He said yes. There is always hope....
I got him to work tonight at 5, after I got out of work. I went and saw my sponsor for a work picnic her employer was having :) I got invited somewhere! OMG! I haven't been invited somewhere in a long time. It was so nice. Her and I talked over dinner, we laughed, I told her more about me, and she told me more about her. She had never heard of Getting Them Sober, and so I showed her the book. We walked around the place, its a "living museum of history" by the ocean and it was just beautiful at sun set. She said "it always comes back to step 1. Every day we come back to it... we are powerless over it." It was so nice to be there :)
I took a bath tonight and listened to a pod cast of an alanon speaker from a convention a few years back. It was good to hear. I listened to one last night too. I like to hear these because I get this great feeling of calmness that washes over me, and I know I am where I am supposed to be, I have to be at these meetings to get better.
I am going to sign up next week to chair a meeting. I will get the key, which means I will have to be there. I was also asked if I wanted to take on the treasury position for the home group. I feel like it may be something I do want to do. Make that commitment. I would love to one day get to a convention. There is an AA one here with alanon participation in a few weeks. May be something I look at going ... who knows.
Thank you all. I am glad to be here, and glad to be learning...I'll keep coming.
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Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
The best place to be sometimes is the beginning. :) On the podcast meetings have you listened to Kathy H? If you can find her listen to her story very neat lady!!
Enjoy chairing the meeting it's such a blessing to do. :) Look at you work your program!! :) Love it!! :)
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Oh girl you go ahead and chair a face to face meeting! I think it is terriffic that you are being asked to take on a group responsibility. Holding service positions really helps keep me grounded and outside my own "problems".
There is another local conference here next weekend that I plan on attending. The local conferences are just the best because they are affordable. I think the one I will sign up for is 20.00 for the whole weekend. So, take a chance, attend a workshop, listen to the speakers. You wont be disappointed.
Also, sometimes when an AA or Alanon group has a birthday, they bring in good speakers from both programs which is kinda like a mini conference. I love those too. I love what you share. You are one of the best examples of the program because it works if you work it and you are my friend.
Thank you Tommye :) It is because of your example here that I am beginning to grow :) I got my sponsor and am beginning to really be ready for the steps... I am humbled and grateful to be here :) Cool about the local conferences, I will look into that AA one here, I bet it would be interesting....
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Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
That is so awesome! I know the calmness you are referring to! I am so thankful for the program and MIP I alway love reading your posts they are so encouraging!
