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Jozie


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I Just got back from my F2F Meeting tonight, and Boy was I Glad that I Just sat & Listened... So Much Pain in the room tonight, So many bad choices, and bad days, and so many tears... It really for me allows me to see myself as Human when I can relate to those that are Trying so Hard, yet at times feel like they are failing...

I know that feeling, and when I got thru my steps I realized I NEEDED to have that Pain, Those Mistakes, Those Growing Moments, in order to come to where I am...

Tonight there was Alot of Parents with A children, and tho I have not went thru the same things as them with their own children, me myself being a Child of an Alcoholic and so relate to them on so many levels... the Things they are struggling with their children, I was that CHILD... I was the Unrulely one, The Drunk at 13, I was the one Testing my Mom with every ounce of my being...I was the one too tell her, it was None of her business and shutting her out of my life when I was a Rebelling Teen... and really that is when I needed her the most... I just didn't know how to tell her that... 

Honestly if I knew she wouldnt be in bed for work in the morning I would most likely call and appolize to her 100 times over for all the hurt that I caused her growning up... Or at least that I FEEL I caused her... She always tells me I was the "Mild" one!...lol... If She only knew the Real Story...

I think when I go to a meeting like tonight when Everyone there just NEEDS Something... Anything to get them thru the night, to see brighter tomorrows, It is humbling to me...  I am humbled by how Couragous they are to come and Share their Pain, there Struggles, even when I can see they are having a tough time, just spittin it out... And at times, it also reminds me, my life Isn't so bad...

I am Seeing Changes, I am Making changes almost daily in my thought process and my actions, I am Feeling More Whole then I Ever remember in my past...And I know that comes from here! Alanon/ACOA... My Pain was in watching my Afather Die of this Disease, and yet not knowing of such a place of this till after he had pasted... Yet Feeling Grateful to him & his disease for Bring me to My Program, Allowing ME to chose a better Life, a Better Direction, and Helping me be the Parent I always Wanted him to be for me... I dont have it all figured out, I never will, but just knowing that there is HOPE for ALL of us here, Knowing that we ALL have a Higher Power, regardless of when or how we Accept them in our life...

At times after a meeting I will reflect on what conspired while i was there, either by myself or with another program friend and tonight I was there to Listen, To Feel... and while all the ones that was struggling at the end of the meeting, I was there to Clean up the tables so as they could talk to those that understood exactly were they were... That too makes me feel pretty Good...No.. I Didn't move any mountains, but I was still giving back.. I was still recieving & giving hugs, and taking care of Me, yet feeling deeply for them and their struggles, and at the same time, Thanking My HP that ... Just for today... It was Managable...

So Grateful to have such a place that givese me all these things, and all I HAVE to do... Is Show UP! ....

 

KEEP COMING BACK... Thanks for letting me share

Love, Respect, Hugs & Prayers to all...thanks for being here!

Jozie



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Hugs Jozie,

Great Share :) :) :) I fully understand what you mean. :)

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Sometimes the most horrendous shares are the most powerful. I am always so glad that everyone makes the time to come to meetings.

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Nancy

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Thanks Jozie,
I know exactly what you mean, and you are doing your service work cleaning up the tables while others talk. Some days its me talking to others and some days I am cleaning up tables. It all helps the group keep going. Tonight I am getting to my meeting early so I can help set up. I haven't gotten to go in a few weeks due to my kid's summer schedules, but I am going tonight and I am so grateful! Great share, thanks for bringing it back here! We all need to hear more about great meetings :)

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