so far no slip,thank gosh - Al-Anon Family Group

chinup · Veteran Member

so far no slip,thank gosh

Ruby · Veteran Member

Good for you! Praying for God loving presence to comfort you, He will help you through this.

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs, It's a toss up between can't live with them and can't live without them. This will pass and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You are hanging in and see what the problem is. Hugs again. :)

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

This is when going to a meeting will help you. You could try the chat room here also.

Don't be hard on yourself hon. It's a huge emotional time! It will get better.

He honestly cannot give you what you need anyway.

Do you have friends you could visit. I know it does not take the place, but it does help.

Hugs,deb

chinup · Veteran Member

ty ruby,pushka and deb for all yur esh and yes im trying to hang in there and be strong i am very lonely and i did run out and visited a freind after posting this and talked to her about it she understood but she does not want me to go back there with him cause she knew of all the damage and how my attitude went sour just from being around himand i never learned how to live without them,lol here i am nearing the big 50 mark in age and feel like im swilvering up from not having him in my lifei can go 2 to 3 mths w/o him then bang im back into his snakey arms.i can do this i know ,and this too shall pass with time if i allow it and not give into my wants of a man...hugs chinup

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Chinup,

I take solace in some of my older girlfriends and they keep me motivated to remember that age truly is just a number and they live their lives the way they want to. They are single (never married), either no children or children are grown. My bff forever, when she was in her 50's danced at a halftime show for the SUPERBOWL!! I was in awe of her for her guts and putting herself out there, that's just who she is. Another one she was turning 60 and decided to do bungee jumping for the first time. Life is not over because of a number or without a partner. It might feel that way at times however we cannot not escape getting older.

When I get stuck in "stinking thinking" for me, I remember stories they have shared and remind myself I have a choice to try something different. With or without a partner I still have a choice as to how I want to live my life. No bungee jumping for me .. lol .. I'm scared to death of heights. I don't know if I have the rhythm for dancing like that I'm a dance in my house kind of gal .. lol. I know there is something for me to give me passion that I have been missing for a while. I look at my AH's mother and she's only 64, the health issues, oxygen,how she is all alone (4 sons and only 1 sees her reg and it's not even my husband), and it's all because of the alcoholism. It would be easy to go there and give up. 64 anymore is way to young to think there is nothing else out there. I know I don't want to be there either, she is stuck in a chair all day long. I feel huge amounts of compassion for her, however she has made the choice to do that and nothing else.

Don't give up on you!! You are worth so much more and deserve to be happy and find happiness, with someone or alone it doesn't matter. :)

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