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Today in church I just broke down and cried. My A burned his AA book a while ago and then went back to the program. The recovery didn't last long and I noticed on Friday tha he hasn't gone to meetings in over a month I think. I don't really remember.
I notice him obsessing over our pets, over becoming a breeder etc. He seems to obsess over other things and that takes the place of his program.
I feel so sad. I miss that person who I could talk about anything with, who was unselfish, was learning to set boundaries and was an inspiration to me. I miss my relationship, trust, etc.
I feel so sad today and that's okay. I know I need to feel and process those feelings. This won't go on forever.
I guess strangleing him isn't an option? Haha.
Need to go read now. My program awaits me once again.
Glad you came here to vent! You are aware of your situation and working your program is the best thing you can do and you said it! Keep your head up and I am sending you love and support!
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I understand what you are saying. There are many things that I miss about my exaH despite the fact that he's very active once again in his disease, to an extreme I've never imagined possible. And yet, there are still things that I miss. I allow myself that reality and then move on and focus on the direction that I want to be going.
