The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have read so many posts in the last couple days and the ups and downs in my own life. I am starting to realize how selfish and self centered this disease is. Today I feel like I can't handle one more disappointment, one more broken promise, one more rude comment. I try to work my program, I try hard to focus on me but phrases keep popping into my brain.
"If someone loves you it should feel like they love you" "Nothing changes unless something changes" "Let go and Let God" "Put the focus on yourself"
I am not feeling good today, so I think my emotional resistance is also down LOL I am headed home, will check the board later tonight. I haven't seen my A since last Sunday night, (because of his shift this week) I wanted to see him tonight but he has other plans on Fridays.
Okay, I have a baby blanket to finish crocheting, I will go home and do that, I have to take it with me to Arizona on October 14th, I am almost done with it. I can't wait to wrap my granddaughter up in it.
You sound like you need a big (((HUG))))). I know how you feel. I am so afraid of the disappointments of the entire world these days and I have to work hard at not isolating myself. Congratulations on your granddaughter, at least that is a beautful gift from your HP.
