A few hours ago, I thought of posting here.  Today is my husbands birthday, and, of course, he isn't home.  I didn't expect him to be.  I haven't heard from him all day.   Most of the day I've been feeling down, remembering birthdays in the past....all that stuff.  So,   I logged onto the meeting  here this morning, and one story there could have been mine....like we are with the same man.  I took comfort in that.  Then I went to an alanon meeting, and one lady was speaking of how feeling abandoned and how she got through that.  I didn't feel uncomfortable.  That's the first meeting I have enjoyed.  I left there and sat in my car and cried for a while, but I didn't feel alone.  And lastly....what really opened my eyes to a higher power was this.  There is a bit of background, so I hope I explain it well enough to make sense...

I worked with a gal named Jess.  She was a bad girl gone good.  She went from being a drinker to very religious.  Nobody in the office liked listening to her try to spread her religious views.  But I listened to her.  I like her very much, and no matter what happened to her, she always tried to have a good outlook. 

Me?  I have never really been spiritual, but I always listened to Jess talk about this or that.  One of her favorite speakers is Joyce Meyer.  One of the first things she would do when she got to work was give me the scoop on what the Joyce Meyer sermon was about the night before.  Which I always felt I was helping her by listening to her when everyone else just blew her off..

Well...I was simply flipping through the channels tonight and I ran across Joyce Meyer, so I stopped for a moment and the first thing I heard her say was  that her husband says when the devil throws things at you.....he says...I am not impressed.....If you don't get impressed...You can't get opressed....You can't get depressed.  That just made so much sense to me. 

Next she said you should know how to behave the same whether you are in plenty or in lack...to endure everything with a good temper.   And next she said that anything we say in frustration probably isn't something that needs to be said.  Don't open your mouth and give the devil power.  And lastly...It is my reaction to what happens that ruins things.  Stop feeding it...Anything you don't feed gets weaker and weaker until it dies and has no power over you.

Here I am taking notes from a television preacher.  So not me.  But, I feel like there's a higher power out there looking out for me.  Like what I need is there...I just have to be willing to see it.  And tonight I did....But I wouldn't have if I hadn't known Jess....So, he was watching out for me way back when....and only now was I able to really get it....
 
Thanks for listening to my rant.  I feel so good...:)