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likemyheart · ~*Service Worker*~

Let Me Fall

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

What a nice share! I liked this.

When this thing hit me, I just went with it. I felt awful, I feel awful. Its ok. I have faith in Hp that it will get better. Not waiting, just accepting.

I let go years ago now. Still remember looking at the mountains and throwing my arms out and threw my life to HP. Have never regretted it.

When I was almost homeless I remember being so sick of worrying about it, that I thought, well if I end up under a bridge I do. I felt so much better!

Now with the huge change and things coming to me, I am telling myself one day at a time, go with it. See how it goes.

Worry is wasted energy to me. Worry is like saying I have no options. Being concerned is ok. You have faith.

Addicts are usually so insecure, I mean of course ya would be when you crave something all the time, you don't have control over your own desires. Then they get on a program of recovery and work so hard to stay on a good path that they are pretty strict with themselves.

Letting go is a leap of faith. I learned with faith I have no doubts that whatever happens,everything will be ok.

I want to add though, it still may be very hard and painful!
love,debilyn

-- Edited by Debilyn on Tuesday 22nd of February 2011 12:45:32 PM

ilovedogs · ~*Service Worker*~

Thank you so much for that share! I have been fighting the feeling to check up, to control, and to not trust. My AH has been great lately. I've been dealing with some family issues and my problems with my dad are dragging me down and my AH has been wonderful but I sit there and stew over the fact that I'm sure he had a few beers while he was traveling last week. When it comes right down to it, my AH is a wonderful man with a crappy childhood that made him insecure, distrusting, etc and yet I know he loves us dearly even though he's fighting his demons from his past. But, I constantly remind myself that it takes two to tango in this relationship and that many of the things that I perceive as problems are really just my own twisted misperceptions that I've developed because of my own messed up past. And, that's when I turn to my HP and TRY to do what you talked about: Let go and let it happen. Let my HP prove me wrong or right. Let my HP take control and give my loved ones up to Him so that he can mold them and shape them without me getting in the way. But, as Debilyn so poignantly pointed out: the road may still be very hard and painful and maybe that's why I try to control: thinking that maybe, just maybe I can avoid some of the pain instead of surrendering and finding peace within.

Jerry F · ~*Service Worker*~

(((((Likemyheart)))))
an AHA!! moment
shared with family is
a very large AHA moment.
Thank you so much for the
picture.
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danielle0516 · Senior Member

like me heart - Thanks so much for sharing this:) It's a powerful song. There are so many songs now that I just understand or see the meanings of them in totally different ways. Or, maybe I relate to more so I 'get' it.. I like it though... I love music.

hotrod · ~*Service Worker*~

Dear Likemyheat

Beautiful thought and responses. Thank you.

I am reminded that I can be that snowflake (or just a flake) and let go and let God just one moment , one day at a time by using the simple tools laid out by alanon.

It is a miracle and I am truly Blessed

By the way I Like Your Heart as well!!!

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