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Debilyn


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UPdate part!

I just got an email I can have this place if I want it! You guys its late, I tend to be pretty weak when I am tired.
I have to tell you I am scared. Very scared. I know moving is always hard right? I have to go no matter what.
I will go put the deposit down Tuesday to hold to Feb.

The internet and tv are better than what I have now!MUCH cheaper too.

Sadly the place is not big enough for my horse. But that is ok. HP has taken care of everything and everyone else.

What is making me feel so scared? I am no more alone there than I am here really.

I don't know what I would do with out you guys supporting me thru this journey.


OMGosh you guys, this cabin and area is heaven. There are NO words to describe it. Solid home, neat deck rock walled river, rushing over HUGE bolders. So loud!

Guest house has three bunks. room for my horse. NOT a bad drive to or from either.

ok I can see Al Anon has taught me that even if this does not go, its ok. Had the rug pulled out from me more than once and KNOW I will be ok.

I also left a note at my friends who was at work about renting her studio room she had built for her mom. It is beautiful, private. Plus there would be her there in her house and her daughter.

Its a mile off the main road, its so pretty out there. Either place i can have the animals I do.

Becuz of one day at a time, breath, change what I can, I don't feel anxious.

I feel a calmness. Dad said he sees me taking charge. Not feeling like I am in a little boat with no oars.

I would not be able to feel so trusting had it not been for Al Anon. All the horror I went thru, made me who I am sitting here now. I am stronger, I know what I need, I know not to have a bunch of stuff cuz it does not matter.

It will snow and be icey up there!!! I LOVE that. My cell works up there.

The hard part for me is ok if I have a choice which will I go? My friend loves animals too.

But I don't want to ever feel like they bug her. The cabin would be my own.

I am not sure if living by her would ease my lonelies just some or not. She and I have gone to my other friends cabin, and places and we are fine. We never argue or fight.

Shes mellow, no drugs drink or smoke. She is a sp. Ed teacher btw. Just easy going.

NO doors have to be locked out there

Now I would lock doors and put cattle panels all around my cabin place. And a locked gate. Plus I leave my gun by my bed now. I would up there too. But the dogs wouldn't let anyone in. If I had to, I would get me a scarey looking dog.

Its interesting to be so calm. Maybe I finally grew up some. Or maybe I am senile and forget how to be worried....

hugs, debilyn

-- Edited by Debilyn on Friday 21st of January 2011 09:16:52 PM

-- Edited by Debilyn on Saturday 22nd of January 2011 12:55:40 AM

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So awesome Debi!!!

Sometimes I'd like to think we could get tuckered out from worrying... but I think something divine helped you to a better spot.

You are blessed with good choices- I suspect it is likely that one will become more desirable. I am happy things are looking up!

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Good going Debber...one step after another...no guarantees right alongside HP.
Dreaming is good...visualizing is good too.  In support.   (((hugs))) smile

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Oh Deb,

I certainly don't think you are senile. Your worry is faith this time around, that's all. So great... Pretty cool when the "hard part" is deciding among two great choices.

Just keep taking care of you and your HP will continue to lead.

I am so proud of you!

Blessings
Lou

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Deb Hi and thank you....Choices :)  arent they nice :)  I pay attention to how my body feels when I am making important decisions today as well, if i feel tense, if thinking about it makes me feel good, etc.....your going to know whats right, you probably already do actually....:) 

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Maybe this will help...it has helped me when I'm in a tough decision place. I have this near my computer and read it often as the need arises. I think I got it from this board years ago.

Hard calls are a part if life.
They force us to examine our values and determine what's genuinely impotrtant to us.
They insist that we choose the path that's in our highest good.

God, when I am faced with a tough decision, help me be gentle with myself and others as I sort out, with your help, what's right for me.
-Melody Beattie-

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