The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The person I shared I am emailing with is showing more and more who he is. Day at a time. Have his number and am going to call. Theres so much positive. More of a giver, much more than I originally saw.
Is a good friend. As much as you can be by email.
I must be all grown up, old. If I didn't hear from him again. It would not matter. Would only hope he finds happiness.
Maybe I have been hurt too much to care much about anything anymore. Well at least anything or anyone new.
Its weird for me to not want anymore animals. I immediately think, I cannot handle losing them.
Addiction from my ex AH really made me sick. Has done damage. I hope in my heart, and honestly work to heal, to find laughter again, joy, happiness, wake up smiling instead of almost in tears.
The medication helped me to be ok to feel more like me. I am not sure if that is ok. that it takes a medication for me to survive?
See my doc. Tuesday. He is always helpful.
The disease does honestly make us sick. I worked a strong program too. Still do my best.
Will be 58 the end of February. I wonder if these feelings are a culmination of situations gone by. I wonder if we hit an age where we don't know what matters to us anymore, or maybe I just have.
I will find what matters, something will touch me again. maybe. Hope.
Its not I do not know what I do have. Am rich. Have lived almost all my dreams. Have loved, been loved, all the animals I could ever have wanted, lived in paradise. Have so much spiritual love, am blessed in knowing the Truth.
It's not depression. If I go see a friend, I feel like myself, happy. Have not talked with anyone for many weeks.
ginger cat winnapur is demanding to be in my lap. Have had to move her five times already it must be a hint to stop...love,deb
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Thanks for sharing "Stuff". I too wander thru my thoughts of the past and try to comprehend what truly is important to me now.
You are a loving beautiful person and i am so glad that your dreams have all been achieved. That you have known love and happiness is so very important. Maybe, all we need to do now is be grateful for all we have had and have .
Please know that it is important to take good care of yourself so that you can share that knowledge and wisdom with others.