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My story is not new. We have all been wrought with some of the same things through our childhoods and lives. Some worse, some not so bad, still causing us to grow a disease... Last night I had an attitude problem about something that I couldn't change. I was cranky, and I could feel my vibes affecting the whole house. The kids got cranky with each other (8 and 14 year old boys) and my bf could read me like a wide open book. We had to get to the library because (in my mind its stupid) they close at 8pm. This gives us exactly a half hour after we get home to get there in time to do anything like, I don't know pick out a book? Anyway, while on the way there, I was still really attitudinal. My kids were bickering and my bf was looking at me like "where did this girl come from?" I have been so serene lately and things have been great for me and the kids and the bf. I don't know what set me off really, I was just blah I guess and allowing my disease to simmer and fester and boil... Ok, so we got to the library. Park the car, and get out. ..... The kids get out, my bf gets out, and he quietly takes my hand in his and kisses my knuckles... I remembered that I needed to breathe all of the sudden. I remembered I could feel serene and so this gentle kiss on the hand helped me change my attitude and I was right back to the new me. We all walked into the library and as my crankiness subsided, the kids in turn changed into happy guys again. My bf smiled at me and we had just enough time to sit and look at books with my 8 year old while my 14 year old did his own book looking. While there, another thing happened that reminded me to REMAIN CALM: A mom of 4 kids was shouting almost at the top of her lungs at her kids disrupting our quiet time reading together. I kept trying to read over her yelling. I looked at my son who turned to me and whispered "I am so glad you are not like that mom, you are the best mommy and nicest mommy ever!" Wow. I was floored. Even after my attitude fest I had, and felt bad for, my son saw through it and made me see that I am a good influence in his life :) By the way Jerry, I talked to him and my older son about where happiness comes from and my younger son now when I ask him says "happiness grows inside of me" with a big grin! THanks all! I am eternally grateful!
-- Edited by sunflowergirl on Tuesday 4th of January 2011 09:59:06 AM
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You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. -Buddha
The past has flown away. The coming month and year do not exsist. Ours only is the present's tiny point. -Mahmud Shabistanri
AWESOME!