As I thought, I'm feeling better the last two days.  Nothing changed but my feelings.  This depression comes and goes.  I know I can feed into it or work against it.  What helped?  I think two good nights sleep in a row.  Some exercise, went to a beach bonfire with some friends, spent time with my daughter and dog.  These things tend to be things I like so it helps.
Talking with HP alot lately as well as inner child.  Asked HP to take away my depression, and resentment.  And to help me see the good around me.  I also told him that I want to be happy and at this point whatever works is what i'll do.
I also realize I'm no good to anyone else in any situation unless I'm in a good place.  That's a thought that I have to remind myself of constantly.  It puts some responsibility on me and removes me from being at the mercy of life events.

I just remembered someone in alanon said to me a long time ago:  "don't expect things around you to get better until you get better."  Hmmmm....I guess I believe that.  Recently took my daughter out of Karate (she was getting bored with it) and this besides saving a little money frees up some time for me to make an alanon meeting on one night per week.  I'm going to try.  One bummer was I work late on Mondays and there was a meeting right by my house.  One night I thought it would make sense to go there after work as I was already out of the house and daughter is asleep when I get home anyway.  Apparently the meeting is no more...no cars etc. in the lot, doors locked.  So let's see what i can do with this.