Haven't been here in ages....had to Let go and let god in sooo many areas, in order to try to find myself again.  The struggles have been many and the rewards have been great...I had to go through it to get to it.  No perfection here, just an imperfect girl still making progress.  My apologizes for anyone I offended or hurt my last time here.  No excuses, just not in a good place then.

Still working the program, a better program, or should I say it's working me.  I find myself doing or saying things that are program without realizing it a lot of the time.  When I first came to AlAnon I believed that I could just memorize all the steps etc and do it....now I know it is a program that takes time and work, and it grows on me.  Took me a long time to realize I just couldnt pick it up and check out.  I found myself using the boards to vent, and to avoid contact with the outside world and I needed to change that a bit. 

So I'm back, I'm blessed, but facing another struggle that is hurting me greatly.  A problem I can do nothing about but ask for your prayers...

I'd like to ask you all to please keep my Uncle in your prayers...he was recently diagnosed with lung cancer and my heart is breaking.  I just buried one of my lifelong best friends three weeks ago, and now I find myself again being confronted with life on life's terms.  My uncle is a good man, the kind of person we all strive to be.  He has an amazing love of life and has been married for 55 years in November.  I've always been close to him and feel my heart breaking.  I'd like to ask for your prayers for both him and his wife and they go through this struggle...

Thanks for listening...
shellyj