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Hi I'm feel like I'm falling apart at the moment, My AH is now on the waiting list to go to rehab and today he got results back from tests and he was told he had a really high glucose reading and his liver is in bad shape. I came home from shopping and found him on the floor with chest pain, I called the ambulance and they left not long ago. They said it wasnt his heart but looks like he may have a problem with some muscle around his heart or in his chest. I dont know how bad his liver is and I pray he will get better. I really dont think I will cope if I lose him and I'm so scared. I cant stop crying. I love him more than life itself. I'm so worried and I cant think straight. I'm in a different state to all my family and friends and I have no one here. I feel so alone and scared. I guess I'm just looking for someone to offer a bit of support and to not feel so alone.
Thank you so much, you dont know just how much it's means that there is someone out there thinking of us. It may sound silly but just those few words mean so much. Thankyou again.
Make sure you get plenty of rest and eat properly -- too easy to get run down whe life gets hectic.
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Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could... Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson
Learning how to practice one day at a time really helped me. When I was so afraid, I would think, he is with me right now. Stop the what ifs.
My first husband did die. So working on not worrying with AH was vital for me not to go nuts!
My ex AH has gone thru so much health stuff. We NEVER know what will happen!Day at a time is so important in life.
Its ok to laugh, read funny stuff, watch funny movies, eat yummy stuff even when things are tough. When we are so close to an A things can get dark so quick. It is ok to lighten things as much as you can.
When they are sick like this, scared, to detach with love is so important. It is the disease making them sick. They still have a need for love.
I hope you have ways to make yourself feel warm and ok. We care about you.
(((((Sam)))))...I never liked feeling like you do now; especially the dread and fear and negative fortune telling and thoughts of doom and gloom and all that other stuff that comes without letting it go and turning it over to my HP. Sitting still and listening to HP was the thought that came to me most at my morning meeting.
You are not alone and never have to be again when you make contact with your local Al-Anon Family Groups. Call the hotline number from the white pages of your local telephone book and find out where and when you can get together with them. If you don't then you will be alone without it being necessary.
Thank you all so much for your replies. He has an appointment tomorrow with the doctor and we will find out more then. I'm praying so hard that it's not to late and that if he stops drinking things will improve. Just waiting now to get the phone call that there is a place in Rehab for him. He is very ready to go.
Fear and stress is the very worst, I understand these emotions all too well.
I don't know anyway but the one day at a time way and leaning on our HP.
We have had to bear the unbearable, I going to pray for you to have strength and the peace that we have to allow ourselves to have because we have no control over anything or any situation. We can only be good to ourselves.
I wish things will be better for you. Please let us know about you.
I have been where your at and know exactly how u feel totally powerless over what is happening , if he is lucky he will find the help he needs this may well be his wake up call . I pray for both of you that it is . Please find Al-Anon meetings for yourself u need support there is nothing u can do about him but alot u can do for yourself ,you will find people who have been where your at and will share thier own experiences with you there is always hope dont give up. Once settled in our program good or bad your never alone again there is always someone to talk to , to share your fears and dreams .one of the many gifts you will find when you make YOU your first priority and get the focus on yourself . Louise
