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I just wanted to ask you all to send up a little prayer today for my brother Jim. He has HepC from his past drug use. He has been in recovery almost 13 years now. He has the most virulant ( spelling) strain of HepC and no treatments have worked for him. He is now in last stage liver failure and as much as we all have tried to prepare for his death it seems there is never enough preparation. He is in the hospital right now in the Intensive Care. He is bleeding internally but they can't stablize this heart right now in order to go in and stop the bleeding. So things are not looking good for him to pull through this time. When he found recovery he also found a sweet woman who he married and they have an 11 yrs old son. I am 700 miles away from him as is our other sister and while his wife is very sweet she is very fragile and cannot bring herself to go to the Hospital to be with him. They have not yet even told thier son that he is dying. Thier son is a very highly fuctioning Autistic child whos world revolves around his dad. So while I am sure he knows his dad is sick as he has watched him deteroriate they have left him to draw his own conclusions. Which I strongly disagree with as this child's world is going to fall apart when he loses his dad. But he is not my child and I have to respect the decision they have made. But if my brother does not pull through this time his son will never get the chance to say goodbye to his dad which is absolutly heartbreaking. My brother does have an adult daughter who was with him yesterday and I am hoping she goes to stay with him today. I talked with my brother this morning ( after staying up thru the night calling the hosp to keep tabs on his condition) and he says he doesn't feel he will be pulling through this time. I reminded him that us 3 siblings have just made plans to spend Thanksgiving together and I want to hear positivity from him and that he will be there to celebrate Thanksgiving with us. I told him that was an order ( he was in the military) he just laughed and said ok. Of course my prayer is for him to pull through this crisis but if he can't I just don't want him to die alone. As his wife can't bring herself to go be with him I am hoping at least his daughter stay with him and maybe for just a few more days so I can somehow make plans to get to him. Anyway just asking you all to send up prayers that he pulls through and has more time with his family before it is time for him to be called home and if that isn't possible that he at least hang in there until myself or my sister can get to him. Thanks in advance
This is how I lost my bil. I loved him very much for many, many years.
I have to say I cannot relate to his wife, but my drive is to be there with them and not leave and make sure they are not alone. So she probably would feel the same about me.
We all have different abilities.I will pray she will go be with him. To help someone during this time is the most precious life experience. I have spent lots of times with kids like her son. He will do better if he is involved. MY experience is this. They do not do well being kept away from things.
It has to be so hard for you to be so far away! I pray you can get there, you would not be sorry.
With out going into the medical aspects of what is happening, in my experience and education, it is time to get there. I hope you are able to.
You all are in my prayers! When you are there lady, it helps to keep going to the cafeteria and eating, drink water, take care of you. This is very stressful and your body needs you to keep it tip top.
I was the only one there almost every day for a month with my bil. If I went home I arranged another to be there. I took trains and buses to get there and home except the night I lost him, my best friend, bless her heart drove all the way up to get me. Too late for any transport home. I had to get out of there.
It blessed my life to be there. I am a JW, he was searching and read the Bible a lot so I read from the Bible I use and the one he used so when I get to see him again he cannot yell at me! (o: His liver was bad so he was not thinking normal so we talked a lot about things that didn't make sense, but the goal was for HIM to feel comfy. I brought in dry flowers, decorated his bulliten board, made his room as happy as I could.
I got him these heart lights, he says those will drive me crazy don't put them up. So I put them up where he could not see them. (o: People would come in and comment on them and he would be like,"What??" lol It is ok to sing,laugh, be silly.
I still miss Larry, been geez 4 or 5 years. I don't do time. Never remember dates.
Anyway hon, you have been thru a lot in your life, you are so strong. I am with you in spirit. love,debilyn
(((((Xeno))))) you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. This has got to be very hard for you, so I will also pray that you will receive peace.
Take care,
Kimmy
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Kimmy
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes I admit I had to call brothers wife and advise her he needs to to be there with him and talked her into going to the hospital. She is there now along with his oldest daughter I just got off the phone with the nurse and she adivised me he is out of critical condition and that if I were going there to be with him because I thought it was the end she said Don't he is doing very well right now. I honestly think seeing his wife and daughter gave him back his strenght to fight a bit more.
Lynebi Your info was very helpful and spot on. My brother is at the place where he blacks out and talks jibberish and then snaps put of it after a while.
Again the power of prayer is so awesome I am so greatful for my wonderful alanon family Love you all
